I don’t know if anyone actually comes here to read anything, or if it’s literally just me writing to myself, which tbh, I actually kind of love. I don’t think about this blog often, and I definitely don’t write here enough to maintain any type of following, but sometimes I feel the words flowing out of me and then here I am.
I can’t believe Grey is only a few days from 3. That I literally gave birth to this kid 3 years ago. That somehow we passed everything - the newborn stage, baby stage, learning to crawl, learning to walk, potty training, learning to talk, learning to do so much on his own stages. I have a full on human in my life.
We were sitting on the ground last night playing a game, all of us, and I couldn’t help but think that a child comes into your life and somehow seamlessly fits it. It’s like we’ve always had this space carved out for him without even knowing it - just waiting for him to fill it. And we are just so happy. Like truly, truly happy. We played this silly game for almost an hour and we were just laughing and giggling and present the entire time. It was/ is probably one of my favorite memories of 2020 so far.
I’m just so grateful for this boy - for every single day that I get with him. I have learned more in these 3 years about life and love than I have all my years. I’ve also learned to enjoy cake pops occasionally 🥴. Grey savors them - takes long and slow bites and chews purposefully. Like he does everything. ❤️
Anyway, my house is currently a mess. Like I walk in the door and immediately get overwhelmed and want to turn around and leave type of mess. There are just boxes EVERYWHERE - which, obviously, we are packing, but it’s overwhelming. I want to decorate for Grey’s birthday, for Thanksgiving, for Christmas - but we have no exact timeline for when our house will be ready. Originally we were told next year which felt kind of perfect, we’d get through the holidays and also have a chance to enjoy them in our home one last time. But then I was told just last week that we’ll probably be in our house by December and that just kind of puts a halt to everything. Thankfully I took the entire week off so I could pack + celebrate Grey’s birthday. We also just went back into lockdown in Washington, so I definitely have all the time to pack 😅.